you think you know.
but you don't
you think you got it in the bag
but you miss the sack by a mile
you think that you can do it all
and over and over again
but then when you come to the line
when the race is about to start
when the pressure is on
you choke
you say it's because your nervous
it's not
it's because you weren't ready
you were all talk
with no experience
you thought you knew
but you had no idea
so don't say nothing
when don't know nothing
just prepare yourself
because all that smack
comes back during and after
and it is ain't easy after that.

I keep changing. I keep growing and I like it.
I am learning how to gain control.
I am learning time management
I haven't gained all of of the skills yet
But I am doing it and everyday I get better and better
I don't feel satisfied unless I do some work
I am becoming the person I thought college was going to make me be
But I have reached my expectations
And now I am working on some new goals
I have plans and ideas.
Hopefully I accomplish what I want
I am determined
I am giving all my efforts
I am doing whatever I have to do
Nothing has kept me from getting sidetracked
Nothing will

I had a great topic that I wanted to share yesterday but I can't put my finger on what it was. So let's talk about the college freshman, ( I know a repetitive topic here but once I find something new and interesting, you will be the first to know) with never believe it until you see it.

One in four college freshman drop out. 60-70% almost every college 1st semester freshman.

Unbelievable! Astonishing! These were my first reactions. I couldn't possibly understand how could this be. This happened everywhere even to people I know. They never could explain to why it would happen. I didn't understand. Was college that hard? How would I be able to survive the college life? Will I be the one to drop out?

There were so many thoughts running through my head. But the thing was that no one was giving me the answers. Nothing they said satisfied me.

Now that I am in college. I can say that I wouldn't have understand until I experienced it. It's one of those things that you just can't get without living through it.

For example, how can anyone possibly imagine how can I as an American imagine how a French college girl lives. I can't. I can read about it. She could tell me about it but it's not the same. I am not living her life. I am living my own and I can only tell you about me. Other people have similar experiences we could talk about but we don't live the same life.

The one out of four thing is so scary that in the group of people that I hang out with. It's 9 of us. Two of us are failing out. They don't want to admit that they are on the sinking boat and that they need help. They think that they can cover it up but we live we them. We know when their classes are.

They sleep through their morning classes because they stay up all night doing "homework". In the afternoon, they just say I am going to this one but not this one. Time just catches up to them eventually the class is over. The routine starts again.

But there are so many activities and things to do in college that people get caught up in that and not their school. But you have to try to keep your head in the game. College is all about time management and responsibility. You have to take care of yourself. No one is going to take care of you and no one is going to care what you do. College is about doing it all for you.